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Silence: Decisions and Not Rushing

 I know... I've been silent: no posts for 2.5 months.

I've been trying to figure out on whether or not I should keep this blog.

My former blog [Racheigh's Ramblings] started out as trying to write out childhood memories and ended up being mostly about childhood [and adulthood] trauma [abuse and neglect] and the earlier processes of healing.

But as part of that process [of healing], I decided that I wanted to focus on POSITIVE aspects of life; I didn't want to get all caught up in focusing so much on the past [which is vital for healing] that I missed out on seeing the simple joys all around me NOW. And while I could have done so with the other blog, I felt that it would be better for my psyche to try a fresh approach with a new blog instead, thus the creation of My Pure Imagination Life.

But now... well, now I am working towards a more minimalistic mode of living. I am questioning EVERYTHING in my life [objects, relationships, interests] - and the expenditure of energy needed to maintain each one - and deciding whether or not it is worth keeping, and this blog is one such item. I figured that I could write out condensed [serious, trauma-related] snippets on Instagram, and post pictures of completed projects there too, and then see if I am missing interacting with this blog.

To be honest - I am still unsure.
And until I am sure, I will maintain this blog and not delete it.

There are parts of me which I am not sure if I want to try to post about in a short-ish post on Instagram. There are things which I'd like to write about which may seem controversial and which would take up more room than Instagram provides. And I've had to face that in order for me to live a Pure Imagination life, I need to give myself the freedom - the full freedom - to be fully me; and that includes expanding what I allow myself to write about in this blog. If I want to write about trauma, or if I want to present a controversial opinion on a topic, I still should do so. I don't want to be guilty of only talking about the 'sunshine and flowers' part of life when WE ALL KNOW that storms exist - and that they need to be faced. And for me, that means WRITING about them. LOL

I may still decide to shut down this blog.
Right now, I do not know.
And that is ok.

Rachel
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